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nobody's fault
01:26
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when someone makes the choice to keep you out of their life
it should be easy to move on
and i wish i would stop thinking about the sound of your voice
god, it's been so fucking long
but i still think about the places that i would have taken you
i think about the faces of all my friends meeting you
and us spending time in my den
or us starting over again
maybe i'm insane
who am i to blame
it's not my fault and it's not yours
but i can't take this shit anymore
it's not your fault and it's not mine
and i know i'm wasting my fucking time
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2. |
haunted
03:56
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each night before i go to sleep
i toss and turn, my mind runs deep
all i want is to get up at a decent hour
but baby you've cast a spell on me
like some evil magic power
why o why can't i sleep at night?
why do i still think that you're somethin' special,
like you're outta sight?
chorus
i'm haunted by you
how i wish it wasn't true
i'm hung up on you
but you make me feel so blue
i'm waiting for someone new
who will care for me like you pretended to
at time i know i'm doin' fine
feel like i've found some peace of mind
but that all disappears when i catch a glimpse of your smile
and i know that i should be over this
but baby it's taking a while
why o why did i have any faith in you,
when i was nothing but honest,
and all you were was untrue?
chorus
now i'm aware, i'm able to see
the things that make you no good for me
i liked you a lot but you hurt me real bad
don't get how i fucked up and it's driving me mad
each night before i go to bed
i think about things that i might've said
and i wonder if you ever stop and think about me
or recall the nights when we held each other
so tight and so tenderly
why o why don't i stop doing this to myself,
when for all that i know and for all that i care
you can go straight the fuck to hell?
chorus
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3. |
scaredy cat
01:53
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i'm really scared of messing up
and i'm scared of looking bad
i'm scared i'm just not good enough
and i'm scared that i'm too fat
i'm scared cause i know i never meant
as much to him as he meant to me
i'm scared of tearing down my walls
because i've been hurt so badly
chorus
i'm scared of letting people down
and i'm scared of where i've been
and i'm scared of never finding love
cause i can't let anyone in
i'm scared that no one truly cares
about things i have to say
and i'm scared that i forgot to do something
important today
i'm scared i'm not trying hard enough
to hold onto my friends
and i'm scared that they'll all move right on
i mean i guess it would make sense
chorus
i'm scared that i have hurt people
i'd never wanna harm
and i'm scared i won't get the chance
to say sorry from my hurt
and i'm scared of what the future holds
and i'm scared of doing this wrong
and i'm scared because
i've only known sadness for so long
chorus
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4. |
talking in the dark
02:19
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talking in the dark is nice
because i don't have to look you in the eyes
and see that you don't feel the way i feel about you
but that's alright cause this feeling's not new
spending time alone with you feels good
and if you'd let me kiss your face i would
but i don't understand what's going on with us
and i'd rather not deal or make a fuss
i know that i've been strung along
and that you won't get how what you've done is wrong
but for some reason i welcome you to stay
i'd miss you too much if you went away
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5. |
walking in the park
03:41
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i could go for hours of walking in the park
yes, i could go for hours of walking in the park
i could go for hours of lying in my bed
and getting all caught up in thoughts inside my head
i could go for hours of us swinging side by side
or remembering the way i felt the day my grandma died
i could go for hours of feeling so alone
and thinking about the ocean, and all of earth's unknown
i could go for hours of thinking about my friends
and how grateful i am, they love me to no end
i could go for hours of taking a nap
and thinking about the hours, the ones i won't get back
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6. |
sombra
01:03
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camina conmigo
mira nuestras sombras
por la primera vez en mi vida
soy tan alto como tĂș
y nunca mires
directamente al sol
no te gustarĂĄ lo que verĂĄs
mejor dame un abrazo
mejor mira mis ojos
todo lo que sabĂa
sobre la tierra y mĂĄs allĂĄ
no importarĂa si no pudiera
compartirlo contigo
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7. |
skipper
02:01
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my shoulders are tense
and my head is heavy
take a deep hit
then breathe that shit out
uptight by day
and uptight by night
take a deep breath
you will figure this out
because the world
will not find you
baby youâve got
more work to do
so donât freak out, out, out
try to calm down, down, down
maybe, maybe, maybe skip town
you know that feel
when youâre sure of yourself
but somehow you
still miss your mark
let yourself down
think what went wrong?
forget about it now
it is time to move on
because the world
will not love you
baby youâve got
more work to do
so donât freak out, out, out
try to calm down, down, down
maybe, maybe, maybe skip town
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i ride the subway everyday
and that rite of passage allows me to say
the MTA really fuckin sucks
but darlin you look like a million bucks
where are you headed to now?
i'm takin the f train downtown
if you wanted to see me today
i'd hop off and take it the other way
if a pregnant, elderly or disabled person is standing near you
what the fuck are you still doing in your seat?
move your ass to the center of the car
and remember do not lean against the doors
have a nice day
now we're stuck here between station
and the worst of it hasn't begun
i wanna know if you texted me back
but there's no service on this part of the track
so my guess is tonight's not the night
and i'm home now so my guess was right
maybe next time you'll text me first
but i doubt it, i know how this works
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9. |
lime
03:04
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let me ask you something i'm
having a hard time to find
what are your thoughts, are they the same
as mine? i do not like this game
when is it time to draw the line
and once it's drawn if you don't mind
please tell me
exactly where you stand
if you can
please tell me
did i say something that
bothered you
made you feel confused
i wish i knew
the right things to ask
before you passed on me
lines drawn by the ocean's shore
will fade or disappear before
the hour's done, things of the past
probably were not meant to last
and if that's true would you agree
that i deserve some clarity?
so please tell me
exactly where you stand
if you can
please tell me
did i say something that
bothered you
made you feel confused
i wish i knew
the right things to ask
before you passed on me
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10. |
goddess of wisdom
02:52
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goddess of wisdom
you can't always avoid
how something once made you feel
and just because it is not what you wanted
don't make it any less real
how do you deal when the thing you want so bad
is not the same as what you need
i am spiraling and i am stressed and i don't see a point
this was always grounded in finality
goddess of wisdom
you look surprised
but you saw this coming all along
i've come to find that you can strategize
but that doesn't always make you strong
map out an endless list of ways our talk could go
and it almost feels like i am in control
but i see your heart is in a different place from mine
and i am falling fast into a cold familiar hole
goddess of wisdom
you're not as wise as you always thought you were
i'm letting go of what was never mine
and somehow that still hurts
goddess of wisdom
you're not as wise as you always thought you were
i'm letting go of what was never mine
and i know things could be worse
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Awksymoron New York
a happy sad song based indie pop rock band from Brooklyn, NY
full band is Athena Matsil, DJ
O'Loane, Griffin Jennings, and Phil Joy
@awksymoron
awksymoron.music@gmail.com
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